Means to an End

You can rush to get to the cafe and miss out on compartmentally processing important information using your Default Mode Network (DMN), but this doesn’t make any sense. You’re going to the cafe because you want peaceful time to yourself, yet you’re throwing away peace by rushing. The cafe is a means to an end, the end being peace. The implications of this are that you can stop worrying about a lot of things. I can stress about whether to talk to a girl or not, to go to one place for a cinnamon bun for another, but ultimately to get a girlfriend or to have a nice treat all lead back to wanting to not want something, be fulfilled and consequentially at peace, therefore stopping thoughts about these things is probably the best option and I can have my peace.

Stop worrying about everything, just stop.

In fact, do any “means to an end” actually work? How much can and should you distill your appropriate actions down having acknowledged what you want at the deepest level. If I want peace of mind, do any of these things I do matter?

• Writing posts online

  • No I don’t need to do this, I can just sit here with coffee. That puts a smile on my face

• Going to cafes

  • I’d certainly like to. Otherwise I’d just lay down and probably sleep. Would probably just walk a bit, then sit down or lay down and sleep. Only occasionally would I feel like walking quite a bit.

• Working a job for money

  • Idk, can you just do nothing? Maybe

  • Can you find some way to make money online considering it doesn’t need to be complicated and then just relax the rest of the time? Probably.

• Drinking coffee

  • It’s boring sitting on the ground doing nothing drinking water bro and eating oats

• Eating healthy

  • Makes me feel good, otherwise I wanna kill myself and feel shit

• Eating only 2 meals per day

  • It’s good. My eating lifestyle keeps my body fit… I don’t care to answer these questions

• Eating minimal junk food, only an occasional baked good from a cafe

• Playing Minecraft

• Being nice to people

• Having my laptop out at a cafe.

I’ve been vibing with people and women here in Vancouver so far… yeh both men and women. Fucken oath. Not sure if that’s my changes in social conduction or the people in the city or both?

Just stop doing shit. Then add back in things once you genuinely feel you want to, rather than never questioning the fact that you feel a need to do particular things.

If something is merely a means to an end, it’s a want and not a need. It means that it’s there to serve you, but can be discarded once it doesn’t.

It’s amazing knowing that if I wanted to for the next 2 months, I can just explore and go to cafes and build some kind of online business making money. Anticipation vs realisation of something?

Save up money from a job, quit or go on extended leave, spend money on a credit card and then just make the minimum repayments with savings you have. Eventually go back to working and make larger payments to pay off the credit balance.

Even writing this post is me wanting to feel good about making something unique, creative, money, creation, built, my own, my own, business, money, coffee shop, sitting, sipping

to feel happy, at peace with my day.

You can do that by closing your laptop and sitting not thinking.

Choices

I’m selfish, I’m scared, I overthink, I lust, I have intrusive thoughts, I give into temptation, I glance multiple times at great butts, I feel hesitant to help someone in need, although past evidence suggests I will do it anyway, I just don’t know how minor or severe the event must be for me not to. I judge people.

What about you? What do you have to say for yourself?

You lie to yourself

You make everything more complicated than it needs to be. Needs to be. Go enjoy your life brother. Woman, girl, wow… Lay down on the warm sunny concrete pavement with the left side of your face pressed down to the heat. People walk past you but don’t step on you, perhaps you’re invisible in this world. Or maybe there’s no one around. Silence. A view up to the sky with sun adding massive glare, some tree leaves are heavily confuscating the frame and a bird flies by over the blue sky at the top and right of the frame. Aggressively and passionately playing the drums to Lazy Eye by Silversun Pickups or maybe your own or a different song, just with Lazy Eye overlayed. The ending with the piano key in the middle of the guitar riff.

Writing via feeling. Sick of logic. I want to be around you who match this feeling.

Are states of feeling that feel negative something to be avoided or embraced? What are the implications of each? Perspective, empathy? Is that even needed. Can I just chase the feeling that brings me joy, a state of heaven and bliss and life?

What kind of poetry is this?